Eid Madness!!

As you all might have noticed, yesterday was the celebration of Eid Al-Adha, which means The Eid of Sacrifice. I had a blast yesterday although half of my relatives were celebrating the Eid in Indonesia and also for an upcoming wedding of my cousin.........far out! I wish i was there with them. I'm not jealous, somehow I do feel sadness.

To make this an even bigger issue for me, my parents are taking off to Indonesia this afternoon. I'm fully bummed out at the thought of that. The only family left I'll have until they all come back are my brothers, sis-in-law, my aunty (mum's cousin), my cousin & her cute bebe.
I must say that yesterday's Eid Al-Adha was a little different without my young, teenage cousins.

Lakemba Mosque is ALWAYS packed every Eid. Whenever my parents & I headed off to Eid prayer it's always a hassle getting through all those people, especially when that section is blocked, because we live across from the Mosque.
I always pray Eid prayers @ Marrickville's Addison Road Hall because the Prophet (peace be upon him) said that: praying Eid prayers is better in the field than @ a Mosque. That's where I've been praying Eid prayers since I was 6 years of age,and that's where most of the Indonesian community pray their Eid prayers.

I feel so sad and left out for getting my periods at this time. Friday, the day before the Eid was a chance to fast- if you fast that day you will get an immense amount of reward from Allah Almighty, and your sins will be wiped away (2 years worth of sins, i think- don't quote me on that!). So I didn't get to fast on Friday AND I didn't get to pray Eid Al-Adha on Saturday, DOUBLE WHAMMY! But it was okay, Alhamdulillah. I still got my hubby to take me out on Friday, to Burwood while he was fasting, hehhe. Burwood's a hole! Nothing good there. I went to Lakemba afterwards to find my son a long dress for boys. I loved it! He looks like a Hajj! eeeek! Cute!

Anyway, after the prayer & khutbah finished, my cousin & I went outside of the hall to wait for everybody. There we were with our babies. Two prams side by side, Hamzah & Abdurrahman.

InshaAllah our little ones will grow up like brothers, even though they're just cousins.I feel like she's my sister. We usually take photos of all of us, but since almost everybody was @ Indonesia I didn't feel like taking loads of pictures. Only took photos of the two boys. We waited around to shake hands and ask forgiveness from our family & friends, our parents, husbands, and so on. And so we decided to head off. First, Robbie & I went back home for a bit and then his relos came over. After that we went to my mum's house, my aunty'shouse, and then my cousin's to eat. Yeahh.......Eid is 90% about the food! I love it! Here's some pics:
A little blurry: me, Abs, my dad

My mum and her grandson

I hope all my brothers & sisters in Islam, all around the globe, had a wonderful Eid Al-Adha, especially those @ Hajj Pilgrimage- may Allah protect them. Amin.
~Peace y'all!

Survey Time!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Fauzia
2. Forz
3. Ezy (known by family & relos)


THREE 'PHYSICAL' THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes (apparently long eyelashes are "in", LOL, mine are real & my son has the same :P)
2. My feet
3. My face-shape.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DONT LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Stomach (awful stretchmarks from pregnancy)
2. My hair (i love thick hair, but i've never had them)
3. My whole weight gain....yuk!

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Indonesian
2. Indonesian
3. And, uh.......Indonesian.

THREE THINGS YOU CANT STAND:
1. Racist pigs.
2. Husbands mistreating their wives.
3. Muslims misbehaving. Therefore, portraying Islam as a "terrorist" way of life.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARES YOU:
1. Being inflicted by the punishments of the Hereafter.
2. My son being hurt
3. Losing my family and the people I care about.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. Charmed
2. Smallville
3. Grey's Anatomy

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESE ANIMES:
1. Dragonball Z
2. Yu Gi Oh!
3. I only have time for those two.

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Elevator Love - Guy Sebastian
2. The Root Of All Evil - Dream Theater
3. My Love - Justin Timberlake (I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG!).

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Lord of The Rings Trilogy.
2. Bring It On.
3. You Got Served (MAAAAD dance moves!).

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. Happy Feet - watched it, and it's MAAAADD, funny.
2. Superman Returns.
3. Angel & Demons (when it comes out).

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My Islam.
2. My family.
3. Internet...hahhaha.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black trouser
2. Khaki long sleeve top, with red & white stripes down the sleeves.
3. pair of everyday earrings & necklace, and my wedding ring.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Strong Iman
2. Fun
3. Romance. (The Prophet Muhammad was also a Romantic, true!)


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. God-fearing faith
2. Gentleman personality, sense of humour.
3. Do things to please his wife, for the sake of Allah.

THREE BAD HABITS:
1. A little clumsy
2. I tend to burp aloud
3. Sometimes I get a little gassy......better out than in! :P


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Playing drums, guitar, the sims/the urbz
2. Reading
3. Making my son laugh.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Eat Thai food @ Taste of Thai
2. Meet up with my beautiful friends and have a good chat over tea/coffee/lunch (yeh, same here Naf.)
3. Eat. I'm starving.

THREE CAREERS YOURE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. A Mother (my 1st career for lfe)
2. Nursing
3. I've always desired to be in a band, performing (yeh I know, it'll never happen).

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Malaysia
2. Indonesia
3. Italy/Spain.


THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. AbdurRahman (of course)
2. Khadijah
3. 'Umar.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go Hajj
2. Go on a road trip (to anywhere)
3. Have more than 1 child.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (or guy):
1. Always make sure that I look attractive before hubby gets home from work
2. Some decent jewellry. Just a little, not bling bling
3. For those who wear Hijabs: gotta at least spend 15 minutes putting on my Hijab; make sure it's not crooked, no creases, not see-through, covers my bosoms, blah blah blah.

PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:
Anybody! Naf & Gema have already done it, finally it was my turn.

~Peace y'all!

Broadcast Yourself!

Hey there!

Guess what I did! I put my boy's video on YouTube! ahuahauh! Yehhhh..........I wanted to test it out and upload one of my videos of AbdurRahman in there. Of course, I'm not an expert at uploading videos on the internet. When you watch it there's a bit of a delay, you'll know what I mean.

Can't beleive I actually put a video of my boy on YouTube! LOL! Watch it here:


I feel a little wierd in hearing my own voice. You can hear the conversations very clearly when I'm talking with my parents in my language. eeeek! >_<

Regardless, I hope you enjoyed it though :)

~Peace.

I Walk Beside You.

There's a story in your eyes
I can see the hurt behind your smile
For every sign I recognize
Another one escapes me

Let me know what plagues your mind
Let me be the one to know your best
Be the one to hold you up
When you feel like you're sinking

Tell me once again
What's beneath the pain you're feeling
Don't abandon me
Or think you can't be saved

I walk beside you
Wherever you are
Whatever it takes
No matter how far

Through all that may come
And all that may go
I walk beside you
I walk beside you

Summon up your ghosts for me
Rest your tired thoughts upon my hands
Step inside this sacred place
When all your dreams seem broken

Resonate inside this temple
Let me be the one who understands
Be the one to carry you
When you can walk no further

When everything is wrong
When hopelessness surrounds you
The sun will rise again
The tide you swim against will carry you back home
So don't give up
Don't give in

I walk beside you.

[Dream Theater fans, you know where this is from].

~Peace.

The Lone Ranger..................Is Me.

Just for the record: one by one everyone is vanishing off to another country. I'm starting to get the feeling of loneliness. I wonder when I'll get to visit my family in Indo; of course I want to make a stop for Hajj first- my first destination before anywhere else in the world. Sometimes I feel so lonely that I could cry. My folks just live 10 minutes away, but I can't go over there everyday, can't go out everyday. I've learned that when you're living with the in-laws it's not good to make day-trips and go out everyday, or else the mother-in-law will talk and blab.....and blab some more.

I need to patch things up with my Creator. I have sins that need forgiving. We all have sins, I know that. But I will be accountable for MY sins and nobody else's. This is probably why things aren't going so well. There is a hadith/saying from the Prophet (peace be upon him) that "our sins are delaying our Rizq (sustenance)". Which is true and understandable.

Last wednesday I forgot to see my aunty and cousins off to Indo, not because I forgot they were going- get this: because I FORGOT THAT IT WAS WEDNESDAY!! They're gonna think that I decided NOT to go to the airport to see them off. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY MIND?!?! Has that ever happened?? And I didn't get to see off my other aunty, who was going to Hajj, because they had to leave the house @ 5am and they were boarding @ 8.30am. I couldn't go because it meant I had to go to the airport around 6am, there was nobody to take me........oh, how I wanted to cry! I had no other choice but to call her and her husband a safe journey there and back (God Willing). Still, I felt bad for not being there. And now, it'll be my parents' turn to take off to Indo on the 31st December (God Willing). LET'S HOPE I WON'T FORGET THAT!! After that, the only people that I can count are: my brother, my other brother and his wife, my other aunty (my mum's cousin), and my hubby. Not to mention that my son's birthday is coming up on the 3rd January; only I won't call it a birthday party, I'll call it a "Thanksgiving", to thank Allah Almighty for letting my son live to see his 1st year. If we end up having that gathering for him my heart won't be in it, 'cuz most of my family won't be here. But I'll keep a chin up just for the little guy.

Blogging is fantastic! I feel a little better getting all that off my chest. It took the load off. *sigh*
Good night.

~Peace.

Okay. It's been a long time since i last blogged. I can't type to the best of my ability because my hands are allergic to ANY dishwashing detergant; which causes one of my fingers to peel off, possibly Eczema. Right now my middle finger on my left hand is affected. It's got some ointment on it so I can't let that one finger type. Subhanallah, I feel hopeless just because one finger is unable to function properly. Imagine being immobilised, unable to do anything.

Alright, so I've finished watching the 8th and final season of Charmed. Which means there's not gonna be anymore of Charmed! *booohoooo!!* My hubby's friend gets all these tv shows downloaded off the internet, it's a good thing that he does so I get to watch them..yay for that! You have NO IDEA how much of a Charmed fanatic I am. I love the notion of all these magical powers and stuff- no, I'm not abandoning my Islamic belief for witchcraft, HELL NO! Astaghfirullah. I just love a little sci-fi in tv shows, for example: Charmed, Roswell, Medium, and....the list goes on.

The point is, I LOVE CHARMED. And recently I saw on tv that their FINALLY gonna show season 8 & here I couldn't decide whether or not to borrow my hubby's friend's season 8 Charmed dvd's. But alas, I didn't want to waste my chances. I could either waste 22 weeks to know what happens in the end OR I can watch the dvd's and enjoy the final season within a couple of days- I finished watching the final season in 2 days.
IT WAS AWESOME!! Typically, it was a happy ending: Piper and Leo grow old together, both Phoebe & Paige get married and have children. All three sisters have 3 children each: Piper has 2 boys & a girl, Paige has 1 boy & 2 girls (twins), and Phoebe has 3 girls- which i guess her kids are to continue the legacy of the 'Charmed Ones'.
Awww....how awesome. In the last episode we get to see Piper's boys all grown up; I'd have to say they are quite gorgeous! woOOOOOoH!!

Aight, enough of that. I'm still anticipating whether I should purchase 'Roswell Season 3' on eBay, since Robbie's friend doesn't have it. I can 'Buy It Now' on Ebay for $37.95 plus $9.00 for postage. Sometimes the price is higher if the format is bidding. There's NO WAY I'm purchasing the boxsets in the dvd shops! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THEY COST??? Around $70.00. I may like to watch them but I'm not stupid to waste my moolah in spending that much for a tv show! So I'm keeping a watch for it on ebay.

The end of the year is nearing its end. I can't believe it's gone by too fast. InshaAllah my son will be 1 year of age next month - but he doesn't have any teeth yet, LOL!! InshaAllah they'll start growing, 'cuz I see it in his gums that they're on their way, huheuehuehe. He's the 2nd reason I wake up to everyday. Sometimes, I feel sad for many reasons. I'm still living with the in-laws and I feel like i'm restricted in being myself in this house, because I don't have my privacy. Hubby & I are saving up for a home, it's impossible to stay here if we want to have a family.
Our son is growing up so fast. I'm praying to Allah, everyday, constantly, asking Him to find us a separate home to live in - if it is His Will. God Willing.

My aunty and her kids departed to Indonesia last night. And you know what? I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT!! My hubby & I forgot to see them off last night! It just occurred to me 5 minutes ago. I'm gonna have to call my mum tonight, she's probably wondering why I didn't go last night. Oh dear, I feel REALLY, REALLY, terrible! Her & my mum are sisters and her husband and my hubby's father are brothers - talk about a tangle web! So, my hubby and I have the same cousins, hehhehe! Which is an excellent thing to have.

After Ramadhan ended we planned to go out and have Pancakes On The Rocks - ever heard of that place? There's one @ The Rocks and another one @ Northmead, we ended up going to Northmead, which isn't better than the one @ The Rocks.

I remember my first time going to the Pancakes On The Rocks (@ the City). It's easy to remember it 'cuz it was on my wedding night. I went in there with my white wedding dress! I'm not kidding! I didn't feel embarassed. I was cool with it.
After our reception we headed out to the City, with the photographers, to take some wedding photos. It was just Robbie & I and Robbie's friend to drive us around. I remembered it was around 1am that we finished taking the photos. The real cool thing about taking pictures @ the City, after your wedding, is that you get to park @ the unparkable spots and not get a ticket when the coppers see you. People just drive by and give you the 'thumbs up', even Cops, cool!

Well, I entered the Pancakes restaurant and the limelight was on me. LOL! DeR! I was the only one there wearing a wedding dress! While we were waiting for our food a waitress complimented me, hiehiehihee. I felt like a princess at that moment....LOL!
Funny, eh? That's one of my most memorable moments.

Faaar out, I got off-track there. So, looking at the menus, it took them AAAGES to decide what they're having. I swear, Robbie's cousins are somewhat crazy in their humour; when I compare them to how I act with my cousins, let's say that we act more human than they do.
Crazy people, but i love them. So here are some pix:
The boys: AbdurRahman, Robbie, Adam, Arif, & Hanafi

The Girlz: Rina, Michelle, Afni, Katherine & Me

Ready to murder the pancakes!

My little family (Rob's not so good with camera flashes)

This was my Blueberry Haven...mmMm!

Adam, full throttle

Subhanallah! So full! Next time we'll S H A R E pancakes!

I reckon that's about it for now.

~Peace y'all.