Gold Class..............for free.

Hey y'all!

Hubby & I watched 'Mr. Bean's Holiday' last night...........for free! yay! IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOO FUNNY!! The gold class tickets were worth it though. Last time we blew those tickets by watching stupid Borat, aarggghh!!

This Bean movie is better than the last one- funnier! Alhamdulillah my hubby sometimes get some free tickets @ his work, that's if he does a good job, lol.

I've just recently been hooked on watching 'Heroes' on dvd- yep, I'm ahead of national tv. At the moment I'm up to episode 18, "Parasite". I wasn't really into it went it first came out on tv 'cuz I didn't have the time to watch it. But when my hubby said that his friend had episodes 1-16 on his external hard drive, I couldn't resist the temptation!
IT'S SUCH A GOOD SHOW! Although, it reminds me of X-Men. But it's all good!

Signing out.

~Peace.

Is it me or do the days seem longer in non-daylight saving time? Last Sunday my hubby decided to take the day off work and just stay home and watch 'Heroes' all day. Productive eh?
And after all that bumming around we were amazed that it was still before 12pm.
But I like non-daylight saving time. A quicker time to pray Maghrib and I can spend alot of time during the day to do whatever I need to do.

I've become a computer-game freak since playing Need For Speed Carbon on my laptop. I even bought The Sims 2 PC on ebay. lol. I LOVE EBAY!

At the moment I'm trying to keep my son from randomly pressing buttons on the lappy while he's on my lap. Also waiting for my hubby to get back from Melbourne, for work stuff. He was only there for 2 days, previously he was there for work for 3 days. Of course, I miss him during those times. It's also an advantage 'cause I don't have to cook. hehehhehe! Not that I don't like cooking. I love it!

I've got to prepare for a tute & lab tomorrow. That's all for now, I guess.

Signing out.

~Peace.

Look up

Hey guys, sup?

Just wanted to let you all know to check out that banner up the top.

It's a 3-day conference in Melbourne, regarding giving Da'wah by the examples of Prophet Muhammad and not by suicide bombing and whatnot.

Check it out!

~Peace.

Never thought that my eldest brother would get married, let alone have a child. Well, now he's got both a wife AND a brand new son named Khalid Abdul Jabbar.

He was born on the 7th March 2007, @ 02:00 hours. I got the call from him around 5.30am that morning. Subhanallah, he sounded so at peace. I remember when I had Abdurrahman. An hour after he was out I kept repeating the sentence: "Oh my God, I have a son", over and over again to make it sound real to my ears. Both my husband & I were overwhelmed, especially me.

Alhamdulillah it was another happy moment for my big extended family. We were ALL there, all 22 of us, including little Khalid. 23 if you count my aunty's unborn baby, due sometime next month. Luckily my brother's wife had the room to herself (there were 2 beds in 1 room), so we were allowed to stay there. The last time, my cousin had her baby and it was too crowded for us all to be in there; so we filled the waiting room.

I had the previlige of bathing my first nephew, after he was brought home yesterday. I say that he's my 'first nephew' because I've had lots of other nieces & nephews from my cousins; and that's not REALLY a neice or nephew. This time it feels natural, like he's my child too. I warn you all that I get REALLY wierd and clucky when I'm around new babies. I act all funny & start speaking baby language. It's just so beautiful when newborns suckle on their mother's breast. I love it! Where do newborns get the knowledge of suckling & how do they know what to find when they want a feed? It's just amazing how Allah Almighty creates us all.

~Peace.

Hey all~

Just at Uni at the moment. I brang along my son to a lecture today but we didn't last long. hahah! I expected that. It was a Lecture Tutorial for the subject "Becoming A Nurse". This is a subject which I've passed in 2003 semester 1. I've already lodged in a "Academic Credit Form" or something of that affect but Gloria, the chick who helps us nursing students out, advised me that I still attend all classes until the Head of Course grants me some credits for all the subjects that I've done.

I hope to Allah that I do get those credits.

Even though Abdurrahman & I only lasted half an hour in the lecture I'm still @ Uni printing some stuff out and looking for textbooks for my assignments- this time I'm going to start them early, inshallah.

I didn't feel like going back to the lecture even though my son was sleeping after a bottle of milk. I wasn't in the mood. Instead I queued up to buy some textbooks. WHY DO TEXTBOOKS COST MY LIFE SAVINGS?!?! AARrrgh Uni!!

~Peace.

Boy, oh boy. Today was not as tough as yesterday. Had class from 1.30-3.30pm; although the teacher gave us an early mark. My morning was kinda hektick: prepared hubby brekkie & lunch (he left @ 7am to start @ 8am), prepare Abdurrahman's milk and brekkie, do my washing, prepare for dinner and hang the clothes out to dry afterwards - which was useless because they ended soaking wet due to the heavy rain in the afternoon. I've never been more busy than that- I don't think.

By 10am I had to take a break and sit down because I felt my legs were about to split from my body. I watched abit of Grey's Anatomy. I've been downloading recent episodes off HERE. You can find & download all the episodes you like. With Grey's Anatomy I'm up to episode 17. If you're a Prison Break fan and can't wait to watch the episodes on Aussie tv, I suggest you download the episodes from there as well. Trust me, it gets SO MUCH jucier!

Anyway, I left Abdurrahman with my mother-in-law cuz she was free. I like going to uni. It's also a chance for me to get out and socialise with some people, especially the Muslim sisters. But these days, going to uni doesn't feel the same as opposed to not having a family. When I was going to uni before, childless, after class I felt at ease with staying back a little, chatting with some friends. But now, after classes finish for the day, all I want to do is get back to my son as soon as possible..............without speeding, of course. Didn't think it would rain today, hence I didn't bring an umbrella. So, by the time I got to my car, to go home, I was drenched! Love the rain.

I have a class from 10.30-12.30pm tomorrow. Inshallah I'll drop Abdurrahman off @ my mum's. Alhamdulillah she's willing to go to work late in the arvo to look after her grandson. I hope it all goes smoothly tomorrow.

~Peace.

First Two Days of Uni

I'm soOOo tired! Especially today. Nobody could look after my son. I had class from 8.30-11.30. I had no other option but to bring him to class; he was allowed to come and within the first hour he was fine. When it got around 10am-ish he started being fidgety. Eventually he was making too much noise in the class.

I had to walk in and out of class three times before I bumped into Nafeesa (a very good friend who goes to the same uni now), and her class ended up being cancelled. Her and her friend offered to look after Abdurrahman while I go back in class for the remaining 15 minutes. Alhamdulillah! Now I know NOT to bring him in class. I wasn't angry, especially not at my son. Rather, I felt sorry for him. There's a reason that mothers are more compassionate than fathers. Alhamdulillah Allah made us women like that. If I hadn't been compassionate with my son today I wouldn't have cared.

I wonder how it'll be like with 3 kids and going to uni @ the same time. My hubby doesn't eat rice so I've got to cook something different each day. Cooking is easy but if he would eat rice it would make things MUCH MORE EASIER for me.

After leaving uni for the day I bought 2 Wicked Burger Meals from KFC for dinner. That's how tired I am. I'm just going to lay back and put my feet up somewhere. Adieu.

~Peace.

Preparation

*sigh* Here we go. Uni starts today, inshallah. I feel like I'm sitting for an exam; a little scared & apprehensive and I don't think I'm excited about it.

Be right back; feeding my son his breakfast

Twenty minutes later:
Sometimes it's a battle feeding my son in the mornings, somtimes it's peaceful.

Anyway, I've got a 3-hour class this morning from 10.30am-1.30pm. Sadly, while I'm @ uni I have to leave my son behind, with my mother-in-law. I hope he'll be okay; he's been away from me before, but for 3 hours? I'll leave it up to Allah Almighty to watch out for him. I'd have to ask if there's a childcare facility @ uni or something because I can't leave him with my mother-in-law tomorrow; she has to do dialysis for her husband.

We'll see how it goes today; inshaAllah it'll work out for the best.
I'll let you know how I go on my not-so-first-day-at-uni.

~Peace.

Uni Jitters........................................bleh!

hey! wat up, mah homy-G's?? O_0

Hope everyone's well and all :) Yep, Thursday shopping night............what a night. I can't explain why I always feel faint, a little light-headed, and tired all at the same time whenever we go grocery shopping. But whenever I do the shopping during the daytime- I feel fine! Yep, I'm starting to notice the pattern here.

Believe it or not, Uni's starting next week; for UWS. Think I'm getting the Pre-Uni Jitters. I'm a little worried how my son will be looked after when I can't take him to Uni and my mother-in-law is busy with Dialysis at the same time? Inshallah I'll find a way. During tute registration, they've put as a "default" full-time student. Gosh! I'm gonna have to do alot of damage control within the first week! And another bizzarre thing: they've changed ALL OF THE SUBJECT NAMES in the whole 3-year B Nursing course!! I mean, WHAT THE HELL IS THAT??!! I've done most of the subjects that I'm enrolled in right now. I predict it's gonna be a bloody hassle for the first week, sorting out my official hours at Uni. Once that is cleaned up perhaps I have time for a part-time job? Inshallah I will- trust me, I need the moolah to help my hubby in searching a place of our own.
On the lighter side, inshallah I'll get to some familiar faces that I left behind 2 years ago. It is time to embrace Uni life, once again.

I'm getting bored of my iRiver mp3 player. I've realised that I didn't need it anymore. I've got the CD stacker in the car, my sony ericsson which has 1GB memory card. These days I'm not in the mood for music, not even Dream Theater songs. What I should be listening to is more Qur'an recitation, and HEAPS of Islamic lectures. So I've decided to sell it on.....*drum roll* EBAY!! YAY! hauhauah! Alhamdulillah, most of my items get sold :D Problem is: Starting price. What should it be? eeek! >_<
The iRiver plays AWESOME!

Btw, I'm trying to fight off a mouth ulcer- subhanallah, it kills!! I was over-joyed to find Sedagel in the drawer. IT KILLS EVEN MORE!!

Check out this video. This guy paints pictures of 30 people who have influenced him on his torso. I was amazed! Watch it:


~Peace y'all.

Belated B'day Post: I've Lived For 23 Years (Alhamdulillah)

Never thought that I would be married with a 13-month-old son by the age of 23.

My b'day was yesterday. Why am I posting a day after it? I don't know myself. I had the intention of posting sometime yesterday, but didn't get around to it.

This is my 2nd b'day with my hubby and son. And it feels so special every single time. *Gasp* Oh...my.....subhanallah! It just hit me. It may not be a big deal to some people but; it's almost my 2nd year of marriage to Robbie. Time flies TOO fast, apparently!

What do 'birthdays' really mean? In Islam, we try not to celebrate too much on our birth dates. Not to sound pessimistic but we view our birthdays a way to remind ourselves of how close we are to old age and eventually death. More likely, how close we are to death. Of course we welcome our special birthdays with open arms! You can throw a party if you like! It's best to keep it a standard pace. Because if we celebrate too much and over the top, we tend to forget our purpose in this life.

I've never had a birthday party in my life (except in Kindergarten). Not even in my teen years and not even now, in my adult life. Of course I've always had my close family to share my birthdays, and I've always appreciated that. Especially for last night. My mum, brother and 2 cousins came by just for the b'day; 'twas truly touching.

I know it wasn't a big party or anything; but that's exactly what I didn't want: A big party. The important thing is I have a purpose in life, a reason to live, and a destination to reach; Eternal Paradise. And that's what pulls me through this tough life.

We all have a purpose in Life. Don't lose it.

~Peace.

Reunion.

I'm so happy and relieved that all my cousins (from mother's side) are here. My aunties and their families arrived in Sydney one day apart from another. I haven't bothered with updating this blog. Don't know why. I guess I must've been preoccupied with mother stuff, haha.

My parents are back, cousins are back; wonderful pictures of the wedding....wow~ my cousin looked AMAZING. I'll take a shot of the pictures and then i'll post them on here. Felt like I REALLY missed out on a lot- looking at those photos and hearing my cousins telling stories of how awesome it was being with Ummi & Buya (our mothers' parents), and going shopping everyday @ Jakarta. Girls, it sounded like you had the time of your lives!

The people I miss the most are Ummi & Buya; miss them so much. They've seen how AbdurRahman and & Hamzah look like and they are astonished that Uni Novi & I have kids now. And I miss all my cousins over there; the big ones, the little ones, trust me- with my mum having 14 other siblings, beside herself, there's BOUND to be LOTS of grand-kiddies and around 5 great grand-kiddies. It's impossible to fit us ALL in one photograph. Judging from the photos, they've grown so much and there are more additions! Subhanallah!

A little update on what's been going on:

• my son is inshaAllah growing 2 front-bottom teeth. He's handling it well but there's been a few restless nights for him, poor bugga. And also I'm teaching him to walk with just holding one of my hands- and he did it pretty well this morning! Another new thing with him is his ability to clap his hands! LOL! He looks soOO adorable when he claps!
• I've gotten my car back; after 1 year of waiting, wishing, and hoping. Alhamdulillah, I have my little freedom.
• InshAllah I'm going back to Uni, part-time studying B Nursing @ Western Sydney, Bankstown campus. Yep, Rina & Nafeesa, inshallah I'll see u both there!

I reckon that's all the update I can think of. It's Saturday and inshallah around 2.30pm I'll be going to my mum's house for a weekly visit, yay! The three of us usually go out, but today, I don't want to be anywhere near that husband of mine. Had a little misunderstanding (what married couple doesn't?) but it wasn't my fault. I've realised that men NEVER apologize. Why don't you test it out and see for yourself? I swear, it's the truth.

*b r e a t h.d e e p l y* Patience.....patience....patience.

I'll end it here.

~Peace y'all.

Homecoming.

AHOI-HOI!!

whoaaaa!! It's been............weeks eh? Yeh I know. I've been lazy mostly, to post one measly, little, post.

It's been 3 weeks since my son has turned 1 years of age. It's been turning point for me, so far. To recap his b'day party in a paragraph (or so): Alhamdulillah it was excellent turn-out. My mother-in-law invited the WHOLE VILLAGE...........and that's what she got. Food was enough for everyone. Not all of my friends came. I was kinda pissed. I spent all that money for blardy sms's and only 2 friends from school came, for which I'm soOOoo grateful. And for some people to tell me, face to face, that they'll come inshaAllah, but didn't. I HATE THAT!

I felt a hole inside of me grow that day. My parents were @ Indonesia, most of my cousins @ Indo too. I felt that they missed out on this somewhat important. Alhamdulillah it was better than I thought. All Praise be to Allah, he received soOOo many prezzies! So many clothes!!! That's awesome! So we won't have to shop for him for another 3 years!! LOL. Two of my school friends who came were Nafeesa & Lousia; girls, I ABSOLUTELY love your prezzies! They're adorable, and he loves it! :D
Getting abit cloudy now. I'll post up the pics of that day.

Me & my boyz
Nafeesa & AbdurRahman
Goofing around.


LOOK @ ALL THOSE PRESENTS!

~Peace y'all.

My Son Has Lived His First Year.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABDURRAHMAN, MY LITTLE MAN!!

Oh hey! Great to be here again! Finally, I am on time for ONE OF THE MOST important moment in my life...MY SON'S BIRTHDAY! Now, I want to post ON THE RIGHT DAY of something important to me. I am SOOOOOO buggered right now, but the love of a mother to her child cannot be beaten by tiredness and delaying posting in her blog on her son's birthday. No way. I'm trying to fight that tiredness right this minute. It was a big day for the little guy. You know what he got for his birthday? THREE INJECTIONS ON HIS THIGHS, that's what!Hah! Imagine getting that for a blarrdy b'day gift! Poor baby, he was fed up with the 3rd injection on his right thigh. We had to go to a completely different doctor to get him immunised. The usual doctor we go to is on Holidays, and the Medical Centre was out of stock of the '12 months vaccinations'. After those nasty injections it was off to the Baby Health Centre we went.



Alhamdulillah! He is progressing so well. Right now, he's 10.2 Kg, 75cm tall. He can now drink full-cream cow's milk (the normal milk), but I still want to continue giving him S-26 Gold Toddler, with all those nutritious ingredients. But somehow we'll alternate between the two.
Since it was his b'day my brothers wanted to come over to see him. He rang me up while we were still at the baby centre. So I just told him that Abdurrahman & I would pop by @ mum's place. Oh btw, my parents have departed to Indonesia, for mycousin's wedding. So my unmarried brother has the house all to himself.......HOW LUCKY! I wish I single now.........NOT! LOL.Ok, so the story goes: I had to get some shopping done and we couldn't leave my father-in-law all by himself. So I dropped off my mother-in-law and headed off down to my mum's place to meet my brothers there. And between those times alot of shopping had to be done, and I had to be home by 4pm to cook dinner. Regardless of the hecktik schedule, I had fun spending time with my brothers; nowadays, that moment is rare to have.


I always remember back to Abdurrahman's birth day. He came to the world early than expected. His estimated due date was 19 February, 2006, yep- one day before my birthday. I was excited! Instead he came 2 days before Robbie's birthday. I still remember that day vividly. I don't want to go into details just in case some readers get grossed out by birth stories. The first thing new mothers do when they meet is tell each other labour stories - it's facsinating! Alhamdulillah, mine was VEEEEEEEEERYYY easy. The whole labour thing went for 16 hours but the real pains only lasted for 1 hour; and he was out by 4.10pm, 3rd January 2006.



The BIGGEST thing I learned while going through delivery is how precious our mothers are. It is true what parents/mothers say: You will NEVER, truly know how it is to be a mother/parent, until you become oneyourself. Within 5 pushes, I received my gift from Allah Almighty. I was so happy that I was crying. Overwhelmed by what's happened. My gosh, I'm even getting teary while typing this blog.


My point is: when a mother hold her newborn baby in her arms, she thinks about nothing else except how Allah is Gracious; how beautiful her baby is; how hard is was for her own mother to go through the same thing. And with those thoughts in mind, I asked MY mother to forgive me, immensely. For all the pain I have caused her. For the way I acted sometimes - especially raising up the youngest, and only daughter. Dearest readers, I only ask that you treat your parents with kindness. Please, never mistreat them; or else you'll regret it.


Everyday I ask Allah to give me strength in raising my son. For him to be the best Muslim that he can be and never displease his Creator. Here's a classic shot of me & my boy :)

[Forever Love]

It is no surprise why Parents get all your attention,

After all they've been your guardian since you've

Stepped out into the world, since your first cry;

First word, first smile, first walk.

You'll never understand the love of a parent for their children

Until you become a parent yourself.

Why do you take them for granted?

How can you?

Your responsibility is to them after God,

They have cherished you & looked after you

And hoped all the best for you while you were still suckling.

They've watched you grow, grow & grow into a human being-

Into an individual; what you have become today,

Even if you are not the person they wanted you to be;

You will still be forever theirs,

Forever a father & mother's love.

When you stumbled when taking your first step,

They kept you going;

When your mother carried you, wherever she went for the whole nine months,

She battled with the pain & suffering of birthing;

She may have died while hoping you would have a great life!

Will you not help them up after they've taken their final step?

Will you not give them a shoulder to cry on?

Will you not lower your wings of humility to them?

Show them your gratitude, your generosity-

The next time a 'tomorrow' comes,

Will be on the Last Day.

~Peace y'all.

Eid Madness!!

As you all might have noticed, yesterday was the celebration of Eid Al-Adha, which means The Eid of Sacrifice. I had a blast yesterday although half of my relatives were celebrating the Eid in Indonesia and also for an upcoming wedding of my cousin.........far out! I wish i was there with them. I'm not jealous, somehow I do feel sadness.

To make this an even bigger issue for me, my parents are taking off to Indonesia this afternoon. I'm fully bummed out at the thought of that. The only family left I'll have until they all come back are my brothers, sis-in-law, my aunty (mum's cousin), my cousin & her cute bebe.
I must say that yesterday's Eid Al-Adha was a little different without my young, teenage cousins.

Lakemba Mosque is ALWAYS packed every Eid. Whenever my parents & I headed off to Eid prayer it's always a hassle getting through all those people, especially when that section is blocked, because we live across from the Mosque.
I always pray Eid prayers @ Marrickville's Addison Road Hall because the Prophet (peace be upon him) said that: praying Eid prayers is better in the field than @ a Mosque. That's where I've been praying Eid prayers since I was 6 years of age,and that's where most of the Indonesian community pray their Eid prayers.

I feel so sad and left out for getting my periods at this time. Friday, the day before the Eid was a chance to fast- if you fast that day you will get an immense amount of reward from Allah Almighty, and your sins will be wiped away (2 years worth of sins, i think- don't quote me on that!). So I didn't get to fast on Friday AND I didn't get to pray Eid Al-Adha on Saturday, DOUBLE WHAMMY! But it was okay, Alhamdulillah. I still got my hubby to take me out on Friday, to Burwood while he was fasting, hehhe. Burwood's a hole! Nothing good there. I went to Lakemba afterwards to find my son a long dress for boys. I loved it! He looks like a Hajj! eeeek! Cute!

Anyway, after the prayer & khutbah finished, my cousin & I went outside of the hall to wait for everybody. There we were with our babies. Two prams side by side, Hamzah & Abdurrahman.

InshaAllah our little ones will grow up like brothers, even though they're just cousins.I feel like she's my sister. We usually take photos of all of us, but since almost everybody was @ Indonesia I didn't feel like taking loads of pictures. Only took photos of the two boys. We waited around to shake hands and ask forgiveness from our family & friends, our parents, husbands, and so on. And so we decided to head off. First, Robbie & I went back home for a bit and then his relos came over. After that we went to my mum's house, my aunty'shouse, and then my cousin's to eat. Yeahh.......Eid is 90% about the food! I love it! Here's some pics:
A little blurry: me, Abs, my dad

My mum and her grandson

I hope all my brothers & sisters in Islam, all around the globe, had a wonderful Eid Al-Adha, especially those @ Hajj Pilgrimage- may Allah protect them. Amin.
~Peace y'all!

Survey Time!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Fauzia
2. Forz
3. Ezy (known by family & relos)


THREE 'PHYSICAL' THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes (apparently long eyelashes are "in", LOL, mine are real & my son has the same :P)
2. My feet
3. My face-shape.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DONT LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Stomach (awful stretchmarks from pregnancy)
2. My hair (i love thick hair, but i've never had them)
3. My whole weight gain....yuk!

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Indonesian
2. Indonesian
3. And, uh.......Indonesian.

THREE THINGS YOU CANT STAND:
1. Racist pigs.
2. Husbands mistreating their wives.
3. Muslims misbehaving. Therefore, portraying Islam as a "terrorist" way of life.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARES YOU:
1. Being inflicted by the punishments of the Hereafter.
2. My son being hurt
3. Losing my family and the people I care about.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SHOWS:
1. Charmed
2. Smallville
3. Grey's Anatomy

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE JAPANESE ANIMES:
1. Dragonball Z
2. Yu Gi Oh!
3. I only have time for those two.

THREE OF YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONGS:
1. Elevator Love - Guy Sebastian
2. The Root Of All Evil - Dream Theater
3. My Love - Justin Timberlake (I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS SONG!).

THREE MOVIES YOU CAN WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
1. Lord of The Rings Trilogy.
2. Bring It On.
3. You Got Served (MAAAAD dance moves!).

THREE MOVIES YOU WOULD LIKE TO WATCH:
1. Happy Feet - watched it, and it's MAAAADD, funny.
2. Superman Returns.
3. Angel & Demons (when it comes out).

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. My Islam.
2. My family.
3. Internet...hahhaha.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Black trouser
2. Khaki long sleeve top, with red & white stripes down the sleeves.
3. pair of everyday earrings & necklace, and my wedding ring.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Strong Iman
2. Fun
3. Romance. (The Prophet Muhammad was also a Romantic, true!)


THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE GENDER THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. God-fearing faith
2. Gentleman personality, sense of humour.
3. Do things to please his wife, for the sake of Allah.

THREE BAD HABITS:
1. A little clumsy
2. I tend to burp aloud
3. Sometimes I get a little gassy......better out than in! :P


THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Playing drums, guitar, the sims/the urbz
2. Reading
3. Making my son laugh.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Eat Thai food @ Taste of Thai
2. Meet up with my beautiful friends and have a good chat over tea/coffee/lunch (yeh, same here Naf.)
3. Eat. I'm starving.

THREE CAREERS YOURE CONSIDERING OR CURRENTLY PURSUING:
1. A Mother (my 1st career for lfe)
2. Nursing
3. I've always desired to be in a band, performing (yeh I know, it'll never happen).

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Malaysia
2. Indonesia
3. Italy/Spain.


THREE KIDS NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. AbdurRahman (of course)
2. Khadijah
3. 'Umar.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Go Hajj
2. Go on a road trip (to anywhere)
3. Have more than 1 child.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL (or guy):
1. Always make sure that I look attractive before hubby gets home from work
2. Some decent jewellry. Just a little, not bling bling
3. For those who wear Hijabs: gotta at least spend 15 minutes putting on my Hijab; make sure it's not crooked, no creases, not see-through, covers my bosoms, blah blah blah.

PEOPLE YOU TAG TO DO THE SURVEY:
Anybody! Naf & Gema have already done it, finally it was my turn.

~Peace y'all!

Broadcast Yourself!

Hey there!

Guess what I did! I put my boy's video on YouTube! ahuahauh! Yehhhh..........I wanted to test it out and upload one of my videos of AbdurRahman in there. Of course, I'm not an expert at uploading videos on the internet. When you watch it there's a bit of a delay, you'll know what I mean.

Can't beleive I actually put a video of my boy on YouTube! LOL! Watch it here:


I feel a little wierd in hearing my own voice. You can hear the conversations very clearly when I'm talking with my parents in my language. eeeek! >_<

Regardless, I hope you enjoyed it though :)

~Peace.

I Walk Beside You.

There's a story in your eyes
I can see the hurt behind your smile
For every sign I recognize
Another one escapes me

Let me know what plagues your mind
Let me be the one to know your best
Be the one to hold you up
When you feel like you're sinking

Tell me once again
What's beneath the pain you're feeling
Don't abandon me
Or think you can't be saved

I walk beside you
Wherever you are
Whatever it takes
No matter how far

Through all that may come
And all that may go
I walk beside you
I walk beside you

Summon up your ghosts for me
Rest your tired thoughts upon my hands
Step inside this sacred place
When all your dreams seem broken

Resonate inside this temple
Let me be the one who understands
Be the one to carry you
When you can walk no further

When everything is wrong
When hopelessness surrounds you
The sun will rise again
The tide you swim against will carry you back home
So don't give up
Don't give in

I walk beside you.

[Dream Theater fans, you know where this is from].

~Peace.

The Lone Ranger..................Is Me.

Just for the record: one by one everyone is vanishing off to another country. I'm starting to get the feeling of loneliness. I wonder when I'll get to visit my family in Indo; of course I want to make a stop for Hajj first- my first destination before anywhere else in the world. Sometimes I feel so lonely that I could cry. My folks just live 10 minutes away, but I can't go over there everyday, can't go out everyday. I've learned that when you're living with the in-laws it's not good to make day-trips and go out everyday, or else the mother-in-law will talk and blab.....and blab some more.

I need to patch things up with my Creator. I have sins that need forgiving. We all have sins, I know that. But I will be accountable for MY sins and nobody else's. This is probably why things aren't going so well. There is a hadith/saying from the Prophet (peace be upon him) that "our sins are delaying our Rizq (sustenance)". Which is true and understandable.

Last wednesday I forgot to see my aunty and cousins off to Indo, not because I forgot they were going- get this: because I FORGOT THAT IT WAS WEDNESDAY!! They're gonna think that I decided NOT to go to the airport to see them off. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH MY MIND?!?! Has that ever happened?? And I didn't get to see off my other aunty, who was going to Hajj, because they had to leave the house @ 5am and they were boarding @ 8.30am. I couldn't go because it meant I had to go to the airport around 6am, there was nobody to take me........oh, how I wanted to cry! I had no other choice but to call her and her husband a safe journey there and back (God Willing). Still, I felt bad for not being there. And now, it'll be my parents' turn to take off to Indo on the 31st December (God Willing). LET'S HOPE I WON'T FORGET THAT!! After that, the only people that I can count are: my brother, my other brother and his wife, my other aunty (my mum's cousin), and my hubby. Not to mention that my son's birthday is coming up on the 3rd January; only I won't call it a birthday party, I'll call it a "Thanksgiving", to thank Allah Almighty for letting my son live to see his 1st year. If we end up having that gathering for him my heart won't be in it, 'cuz most of my family won't be here. But I'll keep a chin up just for the little guy.

Blogging is fantastic! I feel a little better getting all that off my chest. It took the load off. *sigh*
Good night.

~Peace.

Okay. It's been a long time since i last blogged. I can't type to the best of my ability because my hands are allergic to ANY dishwashing detergant; which causes one of my fingers to peel off, possibly Eczema. Right now my middle finger on my left hand is affected. It's got some ointment on it so I can't let that one finger type. Subhanallah, I feel hopeless just because one finger is unable to function properly. Imagine being immobilised, unable to do anything.

Alright, so I've finished watching the 8th and final season of Charmed. Which means there's not gonna be anymore of Charmed! *booohoooo!!* My hubby's friend gets all these tv shows downloaded off the internet, it's a good thing that he does so I get to watch them..yay for that! You have NO IDEA how much of a Charmed fanatic I am. I love the notion of all these magical powers and stuff- no, I'm not abandoning my Islamic belief for witchcraft, HELL NO! Astaghfirullah. I just love a little sci-fi in tv shows, for example: Charmed, Roswell, Medium, and....the list goes on.

The point is, I LOVE CHARMED. And recently I saw on tv that their FINALLY gonna show season 8 & here I couldn't decide whether or not to borrow my hubby's friend's season 8 Charmed dvd's. But alas, I didn't want to waste my chances. I could either waste 22 weeks to know what happens in the end OR I can watch the dvd's and enjoy the final season within a couple of days- I finished watching the final season in 2 days.
IT WAS AWESOME!! Typically, it was a happy ending: Piper and Leo grow old together, both Phoebe & Paige get married and have children. All three sisters have 3 children each: Piper has 2 boys & a girl, Paige has 1 boy & 2 girls (twins), and Phoebe has 3 girls- which i guess her kids are to continue the legacy of the 'Charmed Ones'.
Awww....how awesome. In the last episode we get to see Piper's boys all grown up; I'd have to say they are quite gorgeous! woOOOOOoH!!

Aight, enough of that. I'm still anticipating whether I should purchase 'Roswell Season 3' on eBay, since Robbie's friend doesn't have it. I can 'Buy It Now' on Ebay for $37.95 plus $9.00 for postage. Sometimes the price is higher if the format is bidding. There's NO WAY I'm purchasing the boxsets in the dvd shops! YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THEY COST??? Around $70.00. I may like to watch them but I'm not stupid to waste my moolah in spending that much for a tv show! So I'm keeping a watch for it on ebay.

The end of the year is nearing its end. I can't believe it's gone by too fast. InshaAllah my son will be 1 year of age next month - but he doesn't have any teeth yet, LOL!! InshaAllah they'll start growing, 'cuz I see it in his gums that they're on their way, huheuehuehe. He's the 2nd reason I wake up to everyday. Sometimes, I feel sad for many reasons. I'm still living with the in-laws and I feel like i'm restricted in being myself in this house, because I don't have my privacy. Hubby & I are saving up for a home, it's impossible to stay here if we want to have a family.
Our son is growing up so fast. I'm praying to Allah, everyday, constantly, asking Him to find us a separate home to live in - if it is His Will. God Willing.

My aunty and her kids departed to Indonesia last night. And you know what? I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT!! My hubby & I forgot to see them off last night! It just occurred to me 5 minutes ago. I'm gonna have to call my mum tonight, she's probably wondering why I didn't go last night. Oh dear, I feel REALLY, REALLY, terrible! Her & my mum are sisters and her husband and my hubby's father are brothers - talk about a tangle web! So, my hubby and I have the same cousins, hehhehe! Which is an excellent thing to have.

After Ramadhan ended we planned to go out and have Pancakes On The Rocks - ever heard of that place? There's one @ The Rocks and another one @ Northmead, we ended up going to Northmead, which isn't better than the one @ The Rocks.

I remember my first time going to the Pancakes On The Rocks (@ the City). It's easy to remember it 'cuz it was on my wedding night. I went in there with my white wedding dress! I'm not kidding! I didn't feel embarassed. I was cool with it.
After our reception we headed out to the City, with the photographers, to take some wedding photos. It was just Robbie & I and Robbie's friend to drive us around. I remembered it was around 1am that we finished taking the photos. The real cool thing about taking pictures @ the City, after your wedding, is that you get to park @ the unparkable spots and not get a ticket when the coppers see you. People just drive by and give you the 'thumbs up', even Cops, cool!

Well, I entered the Pancakes restaurant and the limelight was on me. LOL! DeR! I was the only one there wearing a wedding dress! While we were waiting for our food a waitress complimented me, hiehiehihee. I felt like a princess at that moment....LOL!
Funny, eh? That's one of my most memorable moments.

Faaar out, I got off-track there. So, looking at the menus, it took them AAAGES to decide what they're having. I swear, Robbie's cousins are somewhat crazy in their humour; when I compare them to how I act with my cousins, let's say that we act more human than they do.
Crazy people, but i love them. So here are some pix:
The boys: AbdurRahman, Robbie, Adam, Arif, & Hanafi

The Girlz: Rina, Michelle, Afni, Katherine & Me

Ready to murder the pancakes!

My little family (Rob's not so good with camera flashes)

This was my Blueberry Haven...mmMm!

Adam, full throttle

Subhanallah! So full! Next time we'll S H A R E pancakes!

I reckon that's about it for now.

~Peace y'all.

Can't Think Of A Title.

Hello there, readers. What have you been up to?
I.........am........extra tired after all the necessary shopping i've been doing. But I had a blast! Got to drive my beloved car! Not long to go until I can drive the car with my son in it! Yaaaayy!!

Doesn't it bug you when mostly EVERYONE is going overseas to attend a wedding and you're stuck here, missing out on seeing your family again, missing out on the food, missing out on the wedding of your close cousin, and missing out on the food?? Doesn't bug you? WELL, IT BUGS THE HELL OUT OF ME!

Both of my parents are going, all of my cousins are going, both of my mum's sisters are going (one is going for Hajj and the other going to Indonesia), and some of us have to stay here because we're just not going, because we're pregnant (no, not me), and because we've got babies to look after (yep, that's me).

This January has many birthdays to look forward to: my son on the 3rd, my hubby on the 5th, my mum's on the 21st, and my little cousin (not so little anymore) on the 26th. But also on the 6th of January my cousin in West Sumatra, Indonesia, inshaAllah is getting hitched and having her wedding over there. That's where mostly everyone is going. The last time that I was @ Indo was in 2002. Yes, I think that's correct. We were there for our uncles' weddings; each one a week apart. We had a ball- from what I remembered. And hopefully, I'll get to visit my family in Indo again. This time with just the 3 of us :)

Hmm......Oh! Have you ever watched this comedian, named David Armand, miming to the song Torn by Natalie Imbruglia?

Well......you're missing out! He's mimed the song on his own, but this time Natalie comes in halfway through the song and eventually mimes along with him. I reckon the best part is when he mimes to the words in the song: "...There's just so many things..." Watch his face! You've just gotta watch it!


See y'all!

~Peace.